A Quest to Find MyselfI let myself be dominated again, be let down again. Actually it's very easy to push me down, people can do it without notice. Someone passes by, forms a wind current, and I lose my balance.A Quest to Find Myself by NinaAmon
Deep inside it's not their fault; it's me who doesn't have a solid base. I'm still not able to love myself. My mind is like a labyrinth and I must find myself, but there's a wall around me which I should break with a sledgehammer, though I all I have are my bare hands.
It's easier to break my hands than the wall. There must be another way.
Who put this wall there? And the labyrinth?
Was it myself, to shield myself from outer world?
Or did I just see people around me doing it, and I learned to do the same? No, that would be blaming them.
Maybe it's a mix of both. I don't know. I just know I must get to the end of the labyrinth and break this wall.
Nobody will hear me if I scream. I have to do this by myself.